The Esser Files

Some reason I feel like posting right about now. Simple post though, kinda like an update. Basically, Amanda and I decided to call things off. I know it’s for the best and kinda got a large wave of relief once it happened. She just wasn’t the right one for me I guess. She was gorgeous but like just wasn’t for me. If that makes sense. I mean she just kinda wanted to mess around and we were different people. I also kinda realized that if I stayed there, she would’ve changed too much from herself and I would too which just isn’t okay at the end of the day. Not much else to say about that. Got an english formative essay coming up which is surprisingly going well. Doing a lot of work and efficiently too. Analysing Persepolis is much easier than a dolls house. I mean no one cares about life in middle class Norwegian society in the 19th century. What is interesting is the Iranian revolution and the war between them and the Iraqis. Making good progress and I’m actually feeling calm because for...

Well an update to the situation.  I completely forgot that it was results day so here it is: DT 9(A**) Physics 8 (A*) History 8 (A*) Chemistry 8 (A*) English Language (A) Math 7 (A) Economics 7 (A) Biology 7 (A) Chinese (A) English Literature (B) Average Grade: 7.4 or A+ So as you can tell I’m actually pretty happy with this. Only bad thing was that B and it’s going to be hung over my head for the rest of my life. But anyways I did better than my sister and not going to lie, can’t complain. Did a lot better than most of my year and a lot better than I was expecting. So broke the news to my father who may have been the most unhappy, unappreciative parent on earth. Literally. I sent it to him and instead of being like “Wow that’s great” he said “the grades are 1-9?”  Followed by “Post it on our family chat”. Now my sister was very happy and she posted on her Instagram story that I did great. And honestly that felt really good. Told Amanda who was really proud of...

Hmm not a lot going on as usual. Today was the first day of online school which was pretty cool. Chinese class sucked like expected and English also sucked but philosophy was actually really fun. Still talking to Amanda or whatever I called her on here. Going good but that’s about it. Tomorrow got more lessons and I’m learning how to play Georgia on the guitar by Vance Joy. My fingers are growing callouses and it kinda hurts but it seems cool enough. Oh yeah moved around my room and did a lot of stuff like that. Stuffed a lot of stuff under my bed and then moved my desk around to the side and made a kind of backdrop for my calls now. It’s kinda a bummer cause we have to turn on cameras but it feels more connected to others I guess.

Well it’s been a while since I posted I guess. I’ve been talking to this new girl because I’ve gotten over Violet which is cool. Let’s call this new girl Amanda.We used to go to middle school together and we can pick on each other but low-key we had like a thing for each other. Anyways now we started talking and talking and it’s clear that we both kind of want a relationship out of this. I’m excited to see where this thing goes. Not a lot has gone on except for that. School starting on the Thursday coming up which is kind of giving me anxiety because I haven’t started any of the back to school work. I went to IKEA the other day with Toby to get some meatballs and yeah that was about the entire extent of it. Other than that. It’s been a boring week and I’m going to the beach tomorrow with the fam. Today I just went to go replace my phone batter and buy a new phone charger. It seems sketchy as it is the magnetic one but only time will tell I guess.   She dropped out of school fo...

Okay, so carrying on from last post. I got up this morning and my fam went to sen ryo to get some great sushi. After that we went to the expensive white guy supermarket, CitySuper, then went back home where I proceeded to play on my guitar. My friend, Natalia, who broke up with her bf talked to him again against my advice and they went on and off again. I told her to not talk and to text him for at least a week. Then she decided to tell him she wasn’t sure and she’ll tell him tomorrow what she decided. I told her that was stupid and to tell him a week. And for some reason they got back together and she said she’s gonna be on a social media blackout. So right now, the poor guy thinks that his on and off again relationship  is saved and everyone’s happy while she decides whether or not to carry on. Not the most important thing though. So in a moment of weakness after smelling Violet from an old piece of clothing, I decided to text her. Didn’t go very well. You know, I don’t know why ...

Strange day yesterday I think.  Not a lot went on during the actual day but it all kinda happened at night. Day time, I kinda just practiced my guitar and abandoned my bike at the market.  Okay I know it sounds bad but the bike was really old and this is how I give them away.  I park it by the entrance to the market and it gets taken away by some old dude who probably fixes it and uses it. Anyways I just went back home after that and practice some new songs on my guitar.  I was feeling kind of upset that night so I decided to take one of my infamous walks. I got on the number one bus and headed down to the harbor front and then that’s when my friend Natalia told me she broke up with her boyfriend. It’s a bummer because they were together for ten months or so but honestly the relationship wasn’t good for her. I used to be friends with her bf and he’s a good guy, he’s just a dick sometimes. I feel sorry for the guy because he tried so hard but she couldn’t give anythin...